i had a dream...

I had a dream last night

That I was coming back from Soda in Brooklyn with a friend
We're headed back home – and were waiting for a bus to come by

A large Lincoln Navigator type bus stops at the corner and beckons us in
It was like a Navigator, but twice as big with a 20 foot ceiling, just cavernous

We decide to sit at the back of this tank, the very last row
There was an older man with a big-beach-ball type belly and white hair seated in front of us

The driver gets to the top of a hill and stops his car for half a minute
I'm scratching my head trying to figure out why he's waiting so long

He's done it so as to stop all possible momentum from the car
because we are about to descend down a sweeping narrow narrow hill at a 45 degree angle
and brakes on a car that big are almost useless. So you have to break a block ahead of time
'cause once you hit the brakes, the momentum carries you for a while longer

The ride is terrifying and over an hour long
We finally get to the bottom and everyone empties out of the Navigator
The bottom is an old deserted movie theater
The driver is this young black man, surrounded by various dogs and 1 cat
He mumbles that we owe him money

Driver: "the ride is mumblemumblemumble"
Me: ?what?
Driver: "the ride is mumblemumblemumble"
Me: what did you say?
Driver: "the ride is mumblemumblemumble"
Me: can you write it down?
Driver: "wha?"
Me: can you write it down?

He scribbles down $4.50 on a piece of paper
I reach for the piece of paper -- and his cat thrusts his left paw into my groin
I bend over in pain as I wrestle with the cat
His paws are as a thick as a wrestler's arms, stuck deep into my crotch

The pain is so unbearable that adrenalin kicks in
And I am able to focus on how to escape
And I think to myself

This cat is only as strong as I make him to be
This is only a dream
He is feeding off my anger
Once I can acknowledge that the shutting-off of my anger will make the cat lose his power

everything will be ok

I realize that the cat's power comes from me
I no longer hate the cat
And the pain goes away

And I wake up……………